Wednesday, October 07, 2015

As long as you need me, I will always be here.

This girl turned 5 today. My dear little girl.

The other day we were making a box-toy for her and of all the things that she could write on it, she wrote "Bella and mommy".

It touched my heart.

At this age, she still does has a deep attachment to me. Even though these days there are more and more things that she prefers to do herself.

Even though sometimes she does not want to be kissed anymore.

My firstborn, the first one who ever taught me how unsettling it is to have another heart beating outside my body. The vulnerable, worrisome state of mind. The panic that overwhelms me whenever I let myself think too much about the bad things that could possibly happen that could take my heart away.

"Bella and mommy"

Later that night, I stared at her quirky writing, sat for a while and pondered on what could have possibly been in her mind.

Ever since Khaleeli arrived, she has been trying to be the best sister.

She shows her affection, offered her help, tried to stay calm and hold her patience whenever the little brother gets on her nerves.

Occasionally, she lost it. Most of the time it is over a toy. She gets really upset when the brother messes with her stuff. Well, which sister doesn't?

She has grown up a lot.

"Bella and mommy"

I shall hold on to this attachment as long as I can.

As long as you need me, Bella. I'll always be here.

And when one day you are all blossomed and ready to let go, remember that you will always be my strong, beautiful beating heart.

One that I will always cherish and safeguard dearly for the rest of my life.

Friday, October 02, 2015

Recipe : Lemon and honey panna cotta

I have a very short list when it comes to desserts that I can make.

This is one of them.

The first time I tasted panna cotta was at an antenatal class with hubby in 2010. He really liked the texture and taste of it, so when we were back home I googled the recipe and decided to try it out (I'd do anything to keep his tummy happy haha).

It's not that hard to make actually, and the best part is you can get creative with what you serve it with. There are plenty of variations of panna cotta recipes on the internet for you to try, but if you are a beginner and you'd like to try a simple one, you can start with my recipe.

Panna cotta is actually an Italian dessert, and it literally means "cooked cream". It has this firm, pudding-ish texture as a result of the gelatine that we put at the end of the cooking. It's really simple, just give it a try and you'll get better at it in no time.

Lemon and honey panna cotta

Yield : 3 servings

Lemon honey panna cotta


1 small carton of whipping/cooking cream
2 tbsp of honey (you can put more if you prefer sweeter)
Zest of 1 lemon (or you can also use juice of half lemon, but it has a stronger taste)
1 tsp of powdered gelatine
Summer berries for serving (blueberries, strawberries, raspberries)

1) In a small bowl, dissolve the gelatine with cold water (around 1/2 cup of water)

2) In a saucepan, heat honey until it becomes a little runny

3) Pour and stir in the cream

4) Add lemon zest/juice and stir until everything is mixed well

5) Turn of the heat, and while it is still hot, pour in the gelatine

6) Pour in the cooked cream into 3 ramekins/serving cups

7) Let it cool for a while and put them into the fridge for them to set (around 1-2 hours)

8) Serve them with berries and a little drizzle of honey, if you like.

Saturday, September 19, 2015

The darker side of pregnancy, and the rainbow that comes after

Bella, and Khaleeli at 3 days old
I used to think that pregnancy is literally a beautiful journey.

I fell for all the sugarcoated lovely things like the pregnancy "glow",  the cute bump, the beautiful figure, the license to eat, the rights to be pampered like a queen.....

When I was done with my first childbearing experience, I honestly wish that someone has come up to me and told me about the reality of pregnancy, in all its glory and gore.

Let's just admit it - pregnancy spells misery - half of the time, at least.

The body ache, the raging hormones, the consistent feeling of fatigue, the agony of waiting, the body-expanding, the nauseas, the restless nights, the heavy steps....

The postpartum blues, the unwanted advices (which sometimes leaves us with no choice), the helplessness after delivery, the pain of labour, the healing, the sleep deprivation....

These are the things that every newbie pregnant mom deserves to know too. The reality that each and every one of us has to go through.

I know, it's depressing. In fact, it could also be scary.

However, it does have it's magical flair.

The truth is you deserve that baby when you manage to brave through all those horrifying moments. The newborn baby that you finally get to cradle in your arms. The innocent cooing and the quirky alien-ish features of a baby - it just knocks all those horrible things off.

You have earned them.

And the funniest thing - high chances that you will want to do it all over again.

Wednesday, September 16, 2015

Miles from Tomorrowland Giveaway Winner!

Two weeks ago, I have launched a fancy giveaway of Miles of Tomorrowland Lunchbox set, which I think is a rare item here since the series is also new (or did I actually miss it at the departmental stores?).

Anyway, I am still happy that I am able to give it out to someone, and what makes me happier is that I am going to put a huge smile on a little boy or girl's face soon!

The day has finally come for me to announce the winner.Yeay!

OK so without further ado, here is the winner..jeng jeng jeng...


Congratulations Ummi Beatrixia (Azlina Dahlan) ! You are the winner of Miles of Tomorrowland Lunchbox set. I hope you will like it, and so does your child too! I will be emailing you with the details ok?

To all participants, thank you very much for joining this giveaway. Really appreciate the support and hope you all like what I share here in my blog, and come try out another giveaway next time! :)

Wednesday, September 09, 2015

How to organize a smash-cake session for baby

On Khaleeli’s first birthday, we managed to pull-off a successful birthday smash-cake session for him, instead of a full-fledged birthday party.

We decided to go frugal and DIY, so I baked a cake, whipped up a backdrop and hubby was in charge of the photoshoot (well, it was not as amazing a professional photographer, but it turned out quite OK for our keepsake).

Although it was not as big as what Bella had when she turned 1, we had so much fun as a family and it was a memorable session too. We are glad that we decided to allow him literally make a mess out of a chocolate cake; we think he also enjoyed it.

As promised, here I am writing again to share with you some tips if you are planning to have a smash-cake session with your little one too.

Trust me it would be just as fun as parties, and a good and private family bonding moment for everyone.

The key to any successful occasion is to PLAN ahead, so here goes my tips:

1) Decide on the cake
Decide on what cake you want to give to baby (healthy cake, chocolate cake, gluten-free cake, etc) and decide if you want to order or bake it yourself. To be honest, since baby is also a small creature, a little cute cake is sufficient enough for him. Some moms even use just a slice or a mug-cake (more practical right?).

2) Decide on the theme – simple or fancy?
There are a lot of smash-cake themes inspirations on the Internet, all you have to do is decide which one you would like to inspire from. Since we decided to go frugal, we had a simple setup with props that we already have in the home (E.g a pegboard, a reusable banner, toys). I only spent a little money to buy the balloons (I even pumped them myself!). If you are heading in the same way, just be creative and you will be surprised at how handy some things could be.

3) Decide on which part of the day to have the session
A 1-year-old is still a fickle person which can sometimes be unpredictable. So the best timing to do a smash-cake session is when they are full and perky, in our case, right after he woke up in the morning and had his milk. Remember, the happier the baby, the more manageable they are.

4 ) Decide who would be the photographer and who will be the “director”
The frugal way is to shoot the photos yourself, so sit down and discuss who would be the photographer (E.g daddy,friend or relatives). I was the director of the smash cake for Khaleeli, so yeah, be prepared to get “messy” too. Have a napkin on standby, in case baby wanders off and stains other places (yikes!). As a director, you have to make sure that baby stays focused on the smash cake area, and the challenge is to try to attract their attention to stay put and eat that darn cake! Haha.


1) Prepare everything as early as you can (I prepared mine the night before)
Get the cake, backdrop and most importantly the camera gears ready early. You do not want to waste your time preparing when the baby is all ready to go.

2) Get baby ready
Once everything is ready, dress your baby in their costume or outfit.

3) Be prompt
Try to ensure that everything goes promptly. For example, once baby is ready, immediately get them introduced to the cake. Get ready with the camera by then, and snap as much photos as you can. Photo shooting a child is always tricky as they are not really cooperative and can be unpredictable.

4) Don’t stress out
All in all, relax and have fun. Don’t get tense and stress out as it will impact everything. Let baby play and enjoy himself. After all, it is his birthday! :)

Have anything else to add in? You are most welcome to add them in the comments!

All the best with your smash cake session!



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